Got my chemotherapy power port removed today. True to my mom’s wish she was alive to see me through my treatment and double mastectomy for breast cancer before passing away from her own fight with ovarian cancer 3 weeks ago. My mom, my light and strength who taught me how to fight and be strong. I love and miss you every day mom. 🕊 — at Saint Francis Cancer Center.


Sorry, Ben. Sorry, Jerry.

one of the side effects of chemotherapy is the severely impacted sense of taste. it’s not that i can’t taste foods, it’s that foods taste wrong — bitter and/or metallic. i no longer enjoy one of my favorite pastimes — eating – which is not such a bad thing. and 2 of my best and closest friends (Ben & Jerry) are no longer talking to me because i told them that their ice-cream (all their flavors are my favorites, by the way) tastes AWFUL lately. on the ever present bright side? thank you Taxotere and Carboplatin for kicking the shit out of cancer cells. 🙂 i will tolerate this for a few more months… 🙂

December 29, 2015 (3rd treatment)

Keeping it real!
For those of you this bothers, keep scrolling! For the rest of you, I know you’re curious as to what’s under the hats and bangs. 2 down, with 4 to go (with chemo (attacks cancer) in them) and then, after surgery and reconstruction, continue one or two of the 2 antibody drugs for an additional 9 months, through my port (antibody drugs kills the hormones and protein – HER2). Remember, I got this!!
— at Saint Francis Cancer Center.


December 7, 2015

Today marks December 7th my 2nd chemo treatment. Sabine has decided to spend the entire day with me today and I’m very happy about that. My mom won’t be able to come because she has a little fever running and she doesn’t want me to get sick; I can appreciate that. I’m feeling really good. Sabine and I played cards and looked through magazines and chit chatted most of the day. When Elaine saw me wearing one of my hats she asked if I would, for her, cut my hair as short as possible because it’s really all falling out and it starts to look really gross and kind of scary.

I ended up finishing at the treatment center at 2:30 which was very nice so Sabine decided to bring me home letting Frank work a little longer. We stopped at Marshalls and I got myself another nice hat and a little skirt and a sweater. When we got home Kelly was home but Jen was already at the barn.   We decided that I would take a warm hot tub and then they would cut my hair together. So I got in the tub and washed and kind of pulled through as much as long hair I could and then Sabine cut the rest.  Kelly was really good she got a fishing net and scooped up all the loose hair from the tub. I now definitely have to wear hats.

Like this one…


November 24, 2015

The drink up on my face last night and the heavy lube of Aquafor in my nostrils and around my lips has been a miracle.  My skin is was dry and it was comforting to be able to sleep through the night without the sharp sensation of air drying out and once moist area (gross).  This includes bum, lips, nostril and side of eyes where several tears have been shed.  If it is an area that (can) experiences moisture, I can only assume that the ‘chemicals’ from my first treatment have left a dried acidic trail that tends to be somewhat itchy.

November 17, 2015

Although I planned to take the day off, I worked from home instead.  I am feeling very good.  I do have some rumbling below the equator and have been looking at the Imodium and Stool Softeners trying to determine which this way is going to go.

By 10:00 I decided to step out and pick up Kelly’s finalized senior pictures; I love them all!  I stopped at Jo-Anns to to get some saddle pad fabrics for Christmas orders as well as some NFL themed fabrics for Christmas presents that we will be making for our Secret Santa picks!

I experienced my first weirdness of neuropathy when I tried to shut the mudroom door.  First I got a blast of electricity in my right hand through to my fingertips and then the tip had a numb yet tingly feeling.  I could only equate it to holding Scout’s ‘safety’ color in my hand while passing through the wire.  Sorry Scout, that zap SUCKS.  Maybe this is not neuropathy and just a weird freak thing that happened.